The End Is Nigh

Do you ever feel like school is all about proving yourself over and over and over again? Here I am in my final weeks of my undergrad and all I can think is: haven't I done enough yet?

Believe me, I've learned a lot from journalism. What I want to do; what I don't want to do; what I can do; what I can do well; what I want to do well. I've also acquired a nice set of skills. Do I really need to write a 3000 word article with 15 live sources? Can't you just believe me that I've learned?

My minors have been so helpful at shaping how I see the world. I was always interested in Aboriginal issues, but now I feel empowered by the knowledge I've gained. And I feel a responsibility to support Aboriginal rights and Aboriginal arts. I know the facts; I know the context; I know the literature. How will writing a 12 page paper prove this to you? Can't you just believe me?

As for my philosophy minor: I now know that I need to think about things in concrete terms. Abstract thinking is not my forte, neither is it how I want to spend my life in academia--wondering about things but not making a difference.

This year has also affirmed and reaffirmed certain things for me.

While the work I do as a public relations intern is incredibly important, it just doesn't leave me fulfilled. I love the people I've met and I've learned so many positive (and negative) things about the queer community, but I just won't enjoy a life in communications.

Volunteering in a kindergarten classroom makes me happy and leaves me with a sense of accomplishment. Not to mention, kids are so damn funny and cute! This experience has led me to finally give in to what friends and family had been telling me for years--become a teacher!

And finally, my ongoing internship with a food and travel magazine has taught me that my life as a writer doesn't end if I become a teacher. (It has also taught me that I'm a pretty good proofreader. Hire me?!)

All three experiences were me giving my time away for free, too.

It definitely is the procrastination talking, but just give me my degree! I've proven myself enough.