So, I don't really know what I want to be when I grow up.
I see everyone around me gaining the experience, knowledge, and confidence to go toward what they want to do in the future. And, I feel like I'm floundering. I suppose it could be that I am in one of the best journalism programs in the country. My fellow classmates are obviously highly motivated individuals.
But, I feel like I'm doing nothing in comparison. ...Floundering. ...With my lifeguarding/swim instructing job, which gives me no usable experience.
It's not like I'm not trying to do something more. I've applied to internships and writing jobs. But, nothing. I'm too late. All these internships I apply to are already taken by the people who have already done internships.
You have all these dreams when you're little about how magical your future will be. I still have those dreams, but a sinking feeling in my stomach keeps telling me I haven't made enough effort to make these dreams a reality.
And it's too late to start now.
So, I don't really know what I am going to be when I grow up.
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
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They, come on now, that sort of thinking isn't going to land you a gig, right? Not that I don't get what you're saying. I'm in a similar position in that I don't know what I want to be, either. Well, I do have a good idea but don't have the funds to make a go of it. Anyway, the secret is ya gotta keep knocking on those doors. Make a daily plan around applying for intern work. Ya gotta get out there every day. Have you thought about putting up an ad on craigslist? Worth a shot, right.
ReplyDeleteBest wishes, I hope you find something.
@lazyphotographr
ReplyDeleteSorry it has taken me so long to reply! But thank you for your words of encouragement. I guess I'm a when-it-rains-it-pours-kind-of-girl.
Are you looking to do photography fulltime?
I've applied for a couple volunteer positions back in Ottawa and hopefully they'll pan out.
Good luck to you, too! We've got to catch a break somewhere, right? :D
Hey,
ReplyDeleteI discovered your gem of a blog yesterday and i've got to say, it is good to find a fellow scarberian with a flair for life.
I take it you'll be going back to ottawa soon for your 4th year. Good luck. I am finishing off my 5th (and final!)year this year at UofT Scarborough.
Maybe i'll run into you on the trails at rouge park someday on one of my hikes. Until then, keep writing!
I.K.
@Anonymous
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for your kind words! It's been fun trying to encapsulate Scarborough. :)
Not sure what I'm going to do with this place while I'm Ottawa, though.